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The toughest challenge is this thing called Life. Why on Earth am I on Earth? Life's just another lie. It may sound/seem so wonderful, so amazing, yet it's taking everyone's life away silently without a trace.

Things have been really wrong recently. Firstly, I'm going to flunk my A Math trigo test really badly. Secondly, I scored 32/50 for Chinese. Heartache x2.

Do you know how terrible it feels when all the hard work you put into something doesn't pay off? I did study for my A Math test yesterday. In fact, I put in a lot effort into it, and now everything seems to go down the drain. If I knew this would happen, I might as well not study yesterday and enjoy the whole of my life.

Maybe I'm expecting too much. I shouldn't even have had this wishful thinking that there may be a glimpse of hope of me passing the test. I couldn't understand why some people can remain optimistic when stuck in this same situation. I guess I just suck at handling things like that.

Maybe you'll think that I'm silly to brood over stuff like that, even myself felt so too. Probably I'm not used to failing, I should fail more.

Today's incident made me feel that not studying may be a better choice, as things are always better when I don't. I feel disheartened, and for the fact that EOY is next Friday, I shouldn't even be feeling this way at this point of time.

Forget it. What's done is done and this cruel reality doesn't allow time to turn back. The least I can do now is to go have some sleep, have been depriving of sleep lately.

Just to make myself clear, I'm not emo, just frustrated. I will be fine, I will, tomorrow.